Accountability

Hard to think I started this challenge only 31 days go, it definitely feels longer. It’s something I put together in a couple days just before the new year and I am so proud of myself for making it through the first month. The general rule is it takes 21 days to make or break a habit and I am safely on the other side of that marker and hope to carry this momentum through for the next 11 months. Its challenging to do two daily write ups and I have wanted to put it off a few times but I know that once I break the habit or my rule, what’s to stop me from breaking it next time. In fact it would probably be easier to let it slide more often and then just like that, I am no longer accountable to my own goals and ideals. Who would be the real loser though, naturally me, but on a deeper level I would be dismissing myself. Not showing up for myself in something that I truly wanted to do and succeed in, it’s easier to not show up for ourselves than it is for others. Why? For others we feel accountable, whether a boss, a friend or a family member, we are more likely to attend to them than ourselves. How do we hold ourselves accountable and why are some better at this than others? I can only put it down to programming and past events which lead us to believe we are less than or less important than, but if we don’t show up fully for ourselves, who will.