It has to be you

Looking back at where my creative journey began with an A Frame treehouse, I somehow lost confidence in my design abilities which created disconnect between my ideals and my belief in my abilities. I thought that unless my designs and decor ideas looked like the ones in magazines or mimicking the latest trends on social media, that they just weren’t inspiring enough. I felt the need to lean on an interior designer to give creative direction or be at the risk of getting stuck. Well the reality is I never did lean on an interior designer and I did get stuck, uninspired, believing I didn’t have what its takes. I knew my technical abilities are right up there with the best but my vision lacked and I now realise why. I was trying to be like everyone else, trying to fit into a trend that was never authentically me, trying to find inspiration in a place I didn’t belong. I have learned to no longer seek external validation and advice on my designs and ideas but to rather just go with what feels right to me, allow myself to complete a task and not judge myself on what I believe others may think. Im finding peace in knowing that it doesn’t always have to feel perfect before I start but by starting and and working through the motions, the need for perfection starts to fade as I fall in love with the process.